Change

Whatever else I may be as a person, I have always tended to be at least somewhat consistent.
When a thoughtprocess has been going on, when I am feeling in a certain way, when something specific has been bothering me; I've always been able to communicate my feelings, if nothing else, through writing.

I may get distracted, and several days may pass before I publish my intended message, but it always gets published in the end.

Usually.

It has been a long time since I've felt the need to write.

There have been ups and downs during the entire time I haven't been writing, have no doubt.

A lot of them.

I've been to Norway with Rolf, on a spontaneous trip arranged by my beautiful Cecilie. Not an unmitigated success.

I've been to a get-together with my old classmates, and on that occasion found out I had some old trauma, that I quickly worked through (superior drunk argumentation). Enjoyable yet harrowing.

I've been thinking deeply about my education, my place in society, the world, and how it relates to my family. No conlusions as of yet.

I am about to have my third child, due in the spring of 2009. Awed.

I have financial troubles, but seriously, meh. Who cares. Side-note.

I've been playing way too much World of Warcraft.

I've started a training regimen that has considerably increased my shoulder muscles, decreased back-pains, and improved my general condition, and it's Wii Fit.

I injured my finger rather badly, and had to stop working out every day as I had been doing for a month. Back-ache is back, bless it.

My two oldest living blood-relatives are both turning 80 this year. I am researching family history and making a narrative of their lives as a result, and Cecilie, the kids and I are going to Germany for christmas as a result.

I've decided to halt my university studies for a year.

I am still battling with my alcoholism, an ongoing fight.

I've started listening to, and enjoying, black- and deathmetal music, genres I've previously ridiculed.

And yet... I haven't felt impelled to write anything about it. Any of it.

And I can't explain why.

The kids, Andreas' first day of school, Halloween, politics, love, Clara's incredible improvements in vocal ability, Cecilie's pregnancy, my undying love for her...

Even minor stuff, like my first character in WoW gaining level 70, getting his first epic from Karazhan...

Nothing.

Hm. Weird.

News? No. Level 70 though.

And I've begun to enjoy black and deathmetal. Coincidence? I think not.

My third child is due at the end of april 2009. My gods. Do I actually have a purpose in this world? Apparently so!

I am taking a break from university in 2009, going back to VUC to better my grades, and winding down my studies for a bit. And, you know, being there to care for my children. No#3. Wow.

The past few months have been times of... meh. Being away from the world. Indifferent to the workings of everyday life.